It's possible....

     Well as you may or may not know, Walter and I went to REACH on Saturday, December 31, 2011 for an IUI.  The procedure itself was pretty simple and painless.  It was easy.  What is not easy is this 2 week wait before you can do a pregnancy test.  2 WEEKS!  I'll be crazy by then.  I've had to start on Progesterone, beginning today (CD 14), and doing them every other day until....well I don't know when b/c my doctor office didn't mention that part.  But I assume it's until I'm either pregnant or AF comes.  One thing I've realized (one of the many I should say) is that I am not too impressed with REACH.  The office is soooo big and they have too many patients.  It's like a cattle farm.  When we were there on Saturday there must have been 10 other couples also....at the same time.  They just put us all in different rooms and did IUI after IUI after IUI.  Factory.  An IUI factory.  I am losing a lot of confidence with this office and would not go any further with them, but IUI if cheap in the whole grand scheme of things.  ($672.00 if you were wondering, plus all of the meds which were $1600 in our case.)  Walter and I have already discussed not moving forward with them if this IUI does not work out.  So we shall see what may come of this cycle.  I don't know if I have expressed my disappointment regarding REACH in previous posts, but let's begin.  I like the doctor.  Dr. Katz if very knowledgeable and really seems to know his stuff.  He's also very nice.  But, I have called and gotten false information from the staff re: medicine changes, appt information, new start meds, and overall advice on how to proceed.  This has not happened once or even twice, but many times.  We keep going back b/c we've invested a lot of money and time into this already and hate to start over.  But that is very well what we may do if this doesn't work. 
     Will this work?  Heck if I know.  I read blogs where people are trying 4, 5, & 10 IUI cycles to get pregnant and here I am hoping on number 1.  Hey it could happen.  One of the big questions for me is, what happens if it does work?  Will I stress every single day over whether I'm going to lose this pregnancy too?  Probably.  And if I do lose the pregnancy, how do I cope?  I've been through 4 so far, can I do another?  I want a child so badly that I think that I have to try.  I just have to.  We just have to.  This blog is totally from my point of view, but I know Walter wants a child just as badly as I do.  Trust me folks, he ain't gettin any younger...where I never age (LOL). 
     Part of me wants this IUI to work out so bad and part of me is a nervous wreck that it will happen.  How crazy is that?  How crazy am I?  Actually a lot right now.  I feel like I am not myself this cycle.  I feel like a crazy person!  I got so mad at Walter tonight...no I mean pissed off!  I got to thinking about it and was embarrassed at how I acted.  I was so mad and just feeling like I was crawling out of my skin.  Good thing is this is only day 1...woo hoo!  (That was a sarcasm for the sarcastically challenged).  Other side effects?  Exhaustion, very sore bbs, and overall achey feeling.  But b/c I took 2 HCG shots last week I don't know where the side effects are coming from.  Plus I feel like I'm getting sick too, but again don't know which Sx to treat.  Per other blogs and websites that I've read, the HCG can stay in your system for 12 days, so another reason to not take a HPT. 
     Now I feel as if this blog is ongoing and will never end.  Sounds like a good place to stop.  I will write more later and definitely after the 16th (when I can take a HPT) or if AF comes first.  I probably will not post about that.....but you get my drift.  Again, I would like to thank all of my family and friends for their continued support and prayers.  I love y'all!