Well friends, it has been a very eventful last couple of weeks. As most of you know I had an HSG performed around October 21st. The procedure itself wasn't bad, but it did take a lot longer than originally thought. In the end, the test was normal. Which is awesome...of course that doesn't really give us an answer. The radiologist told me that a lot of women get pregnant after having this test done. Well, we did. I found out really early that we were pregnant, but started spotting shortly after. I went to the doctor on Wednesday, where they did my HCG levels. My level was at 1304, which startled the doctor. They called me and wanted me to come in the next day to do an US and more labs. The doctor was afraid that I may have been pregnant when I had the HSG done. The US was normal, but my HCG levels were down to 1094. That evening I started spotting and it was getting heavier. At that point I knew we were losing this pregnancy too. It was a very emotional experience. You would think having been through this 3 times before that I would be sortof used to it...but I'm not. No matter how many times or how early you lose, it still hurts. Granted I felt better after a couple of days, and on Friday my levels were down to 600. I didn't want to talk about it for a few days, but finally feel up to it. Also I really feel like that this was God's way of telling me that this baby was not meant to be. I know in my heart that kids are in our future...it just hasn't hit me how we're going to get them. We are open to adoption and surrogacy. But I will keep you updated in our journey.
One awesome thing is that I've decided dieting alone will not get the remainder of my weight off. To date I have lost 42 pounds. It was 46 but with everything going on plus all of the Halloween candy I bought (not one trick-or-treater) and therefore ate I gained 4 pounds back. Currently I am 31 pounds away from my original weight goal, so technically I'm more than half way there. The problem is that I've been on a plateau for months, so exercise must come into play. I woke up this morning and did some cardio before getting ready for work. I felt great all day. We will have to see how long I can keep this up. My diet has been better this week as well. I will continue to update my progress also.
Thanks friends and family for your thoughts and prayers. I know they are there b/c I can feel them everyday. I trust that God is working here, I just have to be patient. I love you and God bless.
