A lot has happened over the last few months. We have seen our RE, Dr. Katz, a few times and may have an answer. I have stopped saying that we have an answer b/c when I say that it seems as if a new problem arises. But the doctor has found that I have about half the amount of follicles that I should. My egg supply is also really decreased. Dr. Katz seems to think that b/c my egg supply is pretty low, that that itself could be the reason for our multiple miscarriages. He seems to think that the eggs that I do have are not stable. So after tons of more labs and radiology tests, our best bet for children is an egg donor. Not my worst case scenario, that would be that I couldn't actually carry a child. So I have hope that carrying a child is in my future. Now my problem lies with finding a donor. Sure everyone throws their hat in the ring to offer when the process begins, but when push comes to shove you really find out who means what they say. If it's not already assumed by most, I'm completely frustrated. Of course that too seems to be my theme of blogging. Frustration. Yeah, that's me. I am about to my end with this stress. I am about done with begging for help. I am about to the point where I take my future in my own hands and make what I want to happen...happen. I have an appt with a psychologist (required by the RE before egg donation) on July 28. Hopefully within the next few weeks we'll be a little closer to our goal. I will definitely try to update as we move forward with our extremely long journey.
One good thing that has happened is that Walter and I went on a cruise to Nassau. It was my first cruise, so we chose to do just 3 days in case I couldn't handle it. But it was nice, I enjoyed myself. I do want to do another one, but it will have to be longer...for sure! I would love to get my whole family together and do one. That would be awesome! Maybe someday. So this is all for now. Mainly I had to really get my feelings out and vent a little. So thanks, as always, for listening. God bless & until next time.
