This is a new year, so it's time for change. Well, not really. What are my normal resolutions? Weight loss, exercise, & kids. The funny thing is that I was reading an old blog of mine from Christmas 2009 and in it I stated that I wanted kids for Christmas of 2010. So that didn't happen. But I am hopeful. I honestly feel in my heart that kids are in our future, just not sure how long we'll have to wait. There have been changes since our last loss, and still trying to figure out my cycles, but we will just have to leave it in God's hands. Which I am trying really hard to do. I cannot stop myself from worrying & stressing over the fact that I am another year older and still without kids. I see people on facebook fussing over their kids being at home, out of school b/c of snow, or kids just being loud. Well I would like to have that problem. I have been hearing it all week at work too. People are stating that if their kids don't go back to school soon then they are going to lose it. Well some of us would just love the opportunity to have that problem. I know. I know. This is not up to me, it's up to God's plan. But see, this is some of the things that really hit home for me. Of course I do believe that it is good to just get some of these things off of your chest at times. So this is my avenue for that. I am trying to not let this blog be all about me not having kids, but honestly that is what is happening in my life right now. That is my life right now. We have decided that if there are no kids here in the next few months then it's reproductive endocrinology here we come. And of course our insurance does not cover it at all. Thanks for that. But hopefully it will not have to come to that. We shall see.
Walter and I do have our vacation planned for March 2011. We are going to Lake Tahoe for a ski trip!! Woo hoo! I'm excited b/c neither of us has ever been, so that will be new and exciting. We took our "anniversary" vacation a little late in 2010, we went the week before Thanksgiving to Atlantic City. And I'm OK with never going back. We had a lot of "us" time....and that was the only good thing about AC. But we will always have that.
OK, so now I feel like I may be getting a little tired and this blog may be rambling. But I also do feel like I got a few things off of my chest. So thanks for listening. Good night and God bless. Love y'all.
