New goals

Well a few things have happened since the last post. One of which is that we have now seen an RE (Reproductive Endocrinologist). At this point we really do not have any additional information. We are doing some more labs and testing. So I will update that when we have all of the info.

 I do have a new goal though. Anyone who knows me knows that I've been on a weight loss journey since December 2007. I started to lose weight after beginning a low fat diet,and to date I've lost 48 pounds. Recently I've really begun adding exercise in because dieting alone will not get you where you want to be. I am inspired by my best friend, Heather. She and her husband, Jeff, have taken control of their lives also through diet and exercise. Within their journeys they have begun doing 5K's. I envy that. I am in a whole lot better shape now than I was 3 years ago. I think back, and then I couldn't even walk a mile without being out of breath. And now I'm wogging (this is what Heather calls walking/jogging) the 3.1 miles with no problems. Well, I'm not saying that it's a piece of cake b/c it is work. But it's work that I am happy to do. Hell it's work that I'm happy that I'm able to do. I look forward to working out now. I now have a goal, b/c in June I will be doing my first ever race. I am excited! Now I have a deadline. I have something to work towards. Since I hit my plateau I lost the motivation. Now don't get me wrong b/c I will never gain the 48 pounds back that I lost, but the motivation to continue was gone. But Heather has inspired me. I have a new goal, which is to do this race. Not win or even jog the whole thing, but to simply finish. Sure I've lost weight and feel a lot better, but the original "steam" that I had was gone. I feel more rejuvenated and ready. Ready to do a race and possibly one day jog the whole thing. Then eventually run & win a 5K. So new goals are in place and I'm starting strong. Do I want to continue to lose weight? Of course. But I feel different about it now. I feel like becoming healthier is more important. Strange isn't it?

Thanks for reading y'all. Also thanks for the continued prayers and thoughts for me and my family.

Next step

Well here we are months later and still no children or even the inkling of a pregnancy, so my GYN has decided to send me to a Reproductive Endocrinologist. Which is good, but this may only answer one question and not the other. Why are we having such a difficult time getting pregnant? I know that God has a plan for us, I just wish I could stop trying to wrap my mind around it. All I do is worry about it. I live in "cycle" days. It's not Sunday, it's CD 2. my life has become one, big, fat chart. I have to chart my cycle days. I have to chart ovulation. I have to chart symptoms. I AM SO FRUSTRATED! I am constantly comparing myself to others that have children. If I see someone who is pregnant I automatically want to know how old they are. I want to make sure that there other people out there who are having kids later. If I see someone who is 34 and they are pregnant, well then I'm OK because I'm not quite that old yet. Sane? Not so much. So hopefully, this RE will be able to give us some sort of answer. The big question, does our insurance cover it? Absolutely not! This is completely out of pocket, so hopefully this will happen quickly b/c time is money is this case. We are thinking that IVF may be our next step. Who knows? Our appt is April 7, so we should know more then. I'll keep everyone updated. Thanks for reading my rants, it helps to get this stuff out sometimes.